I confess to you, my new friends: this moment in our church life is a daunting one for us to be starting a new relationship. We’ve had but one (!) Sunday together in which we could get to know each other…and now this Sunday, we will walk into Christ’s death together. I would likely not choose for us to have to get this vulnerable together so soon. I’d rather we had the room to get to know each other, to build trust, to find our way together so that when this moment came…a moment of grief, confusion, loss, and discomfort, we would have a stable ground to work from.
Instead, life the calendar, and the fact that there is no ‘pause’ in the story of our faith means we will need to bravely look to each other—to give each other trust now—so that we can fully engage the Christian story we are about to experience.
Trust is a dicey thing in community. We most often don’t notice it until it is not present. Then we experience the pain of that lack which leads to a different way of being than we desire. And on top of that, trust is built differently for everyone! What looks like trust-building to some may not look like that to others. So there is learning for us to do in this season. Learning about and with each other so that we can be the community we seek to be.
The mysteries of Holy Week, of death leading to life, and the thin veil that exists between the two, tends to bring me back to the contemplatives, and this past week or so, I have been spending time with Consenting to God as God Is by Thomas Keating. He reminds the reader that “…He who is everything and who has everything wants to give it all away. This is the most extraordinary revelation of who God is: non-possessive love. In Greek this is called agape or pure love, a love that seeks no reward and has no attachment to itself.”
As we walk into Holy Week together, I invite you to contemplate: what does trust mean to you? What does love that seeks no reward mean to you? How would you like to live those truths? How would you like to see CCA live those truths? I look forward to discovering this and so much more together with you, beloveds in Christ, particularly during the liturgical journey we are about to embark upon. Let us go to the cross…to the grave…together…trusting that an empty tomb awaits us.
Peace,
Mother Erika
The Rev. Erika von Haaren
Interim Rector, Christ Church of the Ascension
Paradise Valley, Arizona
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